One day I hope this will be my lifestyle— on or near a beach, sun reflecting off my messy strands of golden waves in my hair, beaming down on my skin creating an eternal glow, living off of the most fresh natural ingredients of life, & entering a state of calm. The smell of sun oil, the salty ocean, & a gentle breeze occasionally reminding me to let my worries blow away. Every day I crave to be in the sunshine— fresh ocean air, no makeup but a tan, and crisp white against my tanned golden skin.
I am still under the weather, and have been doing everything I can to get better— soon this will pass. Here’s the past 2 days of my recovery:
T surprised me with the bracelet I wanted. I originally wanted it as a symbol of strength to look down on when I struggle, & yesterday he surprised me with it, so coming from him was symbolic, because he’s a great symbol of strength to me.
We hadn’t seen one another for a while, since he’s studying for the bar exam & I’ve been sick, so together, we took work/ study breaks— he studied while I did my creative work for an hour. He always sneakily takes my picture, & captures the raw expressions of me.
Woke up with a bad sore throat again, but it was nice to look at my color-coated garments & love letter bed spread. I prefer the right white side of oddities of course.
More TEA in my favorite Pottery Barn red mug— Lemon & honey this morning in chamomile steeped tea. Natural remedies are best.
Here is the definition of “sunrise”
the time in the morning when the sun appears or full daylight arrives.
• the colors and light visible in the sky on an occasion of the sun’s first appearance in the morning, considered as a view or spectacle.
Sunrise has a very prevalent meaning in my life, because when I see and feel the sun at its full force for the day, my mind is more open & free. As the colors in the sky become fully visible, my true colors come out & my creativity becomes more visible. I feel better in the sun.
This past week I’ve been recovering from the flu, and this morning, I waited until the sun was fully shining to get out of bed, and live out a morning to find some inner peace & space:
Lit a candle next to the lilacs in our kitchen, watching the reflections on our table, as the sun shines on the surface a swimming pool.
Made a cup of mint tea, sweetened with a teaspoon of fine honey.
Made all natural, gluten-free & even vegan Health Cookies:
almond meal flour, oats, slivered almonds, olive oil, agave, salt, flaxseed, water, extra semisweet chocolate chips, that’s it!
Sliced an apple beautifully.
Sampled a cookie with my tea & looked out at the day to come.
This morning I actually missed the days of high school. The routine, the excitement for a formal this weekend, the planning of post-formal, the Starbucks routine pre-early morning class, the excitement of who’d get their licensee next (of course I was last), the ALL GIRLS NOTRE DAME routine .
I miss the constant gossip or laughter — someone to talk to every second of the day, collaging in the art room, going to the mall after school to find that perfect top at forever 21 to wear on a date that night… the planning of going to a PADRE game after school, ”chanting 09 we so fine”, or the cramming for a test to study for next class.
15 minute breaks scarfing down a snack & spilling the latest gossip.
Having a photo shoot in my backyard— youth VS. the camera
FIRST PROM Junior year. I loved my white Grecian dress.
Going brunette for the first time.
Somedays brooke and I would stay back from our last art period, into lunch flipping through magazines sticking and layering more & more on our endless collages.
wild PARTY BUSSES & being obsessed with the word sexy.
Stay inspired & soon your inspirations will become a reality for you to live the life you love.
—a SUNDIPPED quote by EKD